Way Off Track...AKA the Letter/List Project

I hate this letter thing. I thought it would be sooo easy, I'd keep up with it because I just knew I'd figure out who I wanted to write every letter to. I was way wrong. So I'm jumping off track. I'll still do the letter thing, but I'm going to be selfish and only do the ones I want to. Right now I'm behind by 3, but I didn't know who to write to because none of them really applied to me. I really have a boring life. haha.

So, on the days I don't write a letter, I'm going to do a Top 10 List. I love lists. They make me feel grounded and in control. Tonight starts the list/letter combo, so here goes:

The Top 10 Things That Scare Me The Most

10. That my photography is not as good as I think it is. I read once that artists are the most insecure people, and need constant reassurance that they are good at what they do. Thank GOD I have the family and friends that I do.

9. That my dad is just going to eventually give up on me, too.

8. That I'll somehow disappoint my mom and grandma.

7. That my mom will find out what I know.

6. Waking up to find someone (or something) standing over my bed.

5. CLOWNS

4. Never finding someone I love.

3. Never having at least one child, either one of my own or adopted.

2. That I'll realize too late I was meant to do something else with my life.

1. Not living. There's more to living than just breathing and doing day to day actions. Living fully. Doing everything on my list.